Woman

 Her naked body
 Stayed alone
 Ling here cold
 High in the tower
 Her soul in heaven
 Not on the soil anymore
 Is waiting for salvation
 Want absolution
 vs.
 Her naked body
 Wanted a lover
 Desired him
 To heat it adhered
 He despised her smile
 She was one breath for him,
 She gave her soul away
 Didn't regret, because she loved him
 12:15 31/03/03 

Aspirations

 I have no inspiration
 There is no respite
 I want to forget
 I'm still in illusion
 Hope's waking up
 That he wants me
 That I'm not at the bottom
 You know what?
 I don't know who ...
 But I'm not wrong
 And what I say I know
 Everything will be as I wish
 If need it, I will shout it out
 03:15 27.03.2003 

Love hurts

 beautiful lady
 wonderful dress
 my misery
 orchid flowers
 around ten glimmers
 the candle's on fire
 slowly in the radiance's dying
 I cannot pant
 I want to hear
 that he loves me
 that he knows about me
 those lovely lips
 the glass is empty
 01:40 27.03.2003 

They…

 they have beaten my ambitions
 they did not hide they want to destroy me
 and here I am starting
 I walk, not bending legs
 I will make a revenge
 with just water and bread
 I will reach the top
 I’ll assure myself good
 for my family too;
 like such a small hedgehog
 awkward
 but neat
 defends himself
 it flies through forests
 and he wins!
 later he washes away
 me the same,
 Dear Mum
 I will show you too,
 what will happen will be true