Man's thinness drags behind me time is running away from me feelings don't give peace in a dense scenario I have to be and I have to live I want to get out get outside but first I must abolish it so I could make braids in the sun when I get out of here on the golden floor I'll stand I will proof what is real I will be followed by the treacherous thoughts no more ... 22:00 29/04/03
Only her
a forgotten lover like a broken glass lies somewhere in the dark sad, without joy lies so cold ... bird's flying over her at crossroads full of tears of regret unloved and unwanted she sighs heart broken oh ... poor, sensitive creature your sad memories forget everything in this lurking evil so cold, naked Your sins being weigh these sins to him Don't remember this he's not worth you that he met you, it was his luck 21:30 20/04/2003
Unknown thoughts
And I'm waiting forever ... And decided that I won't delay anything anymore, I have always been mistaken Because I was stuck in one place So I'm moving forward I'm doing it for no bigger reason I will not wonder And I will not be afraid anymore I will go ahead Even on water and bread And will defeat everything In doorway my golden trophy will hang I will win this war Later, calm life awaits me I will still win trophies And the rest is my fairy tale 12:20 16/04/03
Spring absentmindedness
... sit on the lace where sun burns sunbathing in the shade give up to inspiration scream with butterflies by beautiful words not knowing why you let give out to that thoughtless whim but nobody’s shaking it anymore it’s only a weakness of man opens the old lid with new possibilities and well-settled matters ... 12:05 14.04.03
My hot desires
common anchor point a piece of understanding one silent person Has some understanding of me my soul is released finally satisfied 13: 0x 14/04/2003
A piece from the heart”
Take it in the hand Squirm and throw far away Let it flow in line Softly like fresh milk This anger, regret and pain All these sufferings They are like salt for a deep wound So, please, let my desires finally come true Let me forget the time Start everything from scratch To squeeze mistakes in the copper belt So it would be possible to tell that the evil is hiding from us 14/4/03
Journey
Soon I will conquer the world None of my enemies will disturb me I will get what I aim for What can do I will show you Another day is coming More sorrows and sadness I know one day the shadow of bad luck I will burn in a huge fire I'm still fighting with this Hurting myself I will cry a lot And probably hurt my hands I sit in the abyss of this world Fate still plays on me 22:20 08.04.03
The end
My delusions sleepy dreams some unknown thoughts defeated desires I lost my sense luck for one bite ... THE END! The body is floating Mind suffers failure To heaven, to stars, to clouds It goes into dark To spend its last breath Later eternal dreaming ... 11:15 08.04.03
Goofy
I went into state of a happy gob I am in the state of concentration like a broken tube I thought about what to do next My sadness gone smaller I have some looms How to be different than other mammals I already lost the sense of an inch Although I've never dreamed about anything I never mocked anyone I'm not talking about it anymore Because I don't know how my thoughts flow And I'm just falling 10:45 April 4, 2003
Courage
when I was little everything was simple even these acute matters I knew how to deal with them there was nothing that could disturb me I need to come back to this Even if I had to argue for it I will be like I was One day I will sit among stars I will tell them how I came When to get mind I went to what I have achieved That I walked a long way it will be my dearest when you will dream about me You'll regret Because you don't know a lot about me I am a precious treasure ... not like you, bottom ... 00:00 03/04/2003
