In a cage

 In a golden bowl a slave
 In front of black wheel
 Puts on green and goes ahead
 Still remembering her pain
 From her bloody flashes glow
 She remembers her gaming
 How she played
 How tunes went
 She remembers all the moves
 She remembers empty groves
 On which she was seating
 When her heart wasn’t beating
 16:00 09.09.03 

Disappear

 I will cuddle you last time
 Last time I’ll have a blast
 I will put you high
 Last time will let you put me down
 I will kiss you in a chic
 You will see I’m running freely
 We will go down slowly
 You won’t realize how folly
 You will feel it’s the end
 You’ll wonder where it went
 Man, you’re in a trap
 Do not forget the wrap
 Which is following you
 All the way glowing you
 It makes you disappear
 So you feel my fear
 And you’re nowhere no more
 Although you’re not a foe
 00:15 08.09.03 

Elsewhere

 I want to run away
 Wash my dreams
 Start from the beginning
 Somewhere where the sun hides
 As far as possible
 In some warm corner
 Where I will be calm
 Where I will not be threatened by war
 In my soul
 Where I can forget my misery?
 23:08 19.05.03 

Only her

 a forgotten lover
 like a broken glass
 lies somewhere in the dark
 sad, without joy
 lies so cold ...
 bird's flying over her
 at crossroads
 full of tears of regret
 unloved and unwanted
 she sighs heart broken
 oh ... poor, sensitive creature
 your sad memories
 forget everything
 in this lurking evil
 so cold, naked
 Your sins being weigh 
 these sins to him
 Don't remember this
 he's not worth you
 that he met you, it was his luck
 21:30 20/04/2003 

The end

 My delusions
 sleepy dreams
 some unknown thoughts 
 defeated desires 
 I lost my sense
 luck for one bite ...
 THE END!
 The body is floating
 Mind suffers failure
 To heaven, to stars, to clouds
 It goes into dark 
 To spend its last breath
 Later eternal dreaming ...
 11:15 08.04.03 

Courage

 when I was little everything was simple
 even these acute matters
 I knew how to deal with them
 there was nothing that could disturb me
 I need to come back to this
 Even if I had to argue for it
 I will be like I was
 One day I will sit among stars
 I will tell them how I came
 When to get mind I went
 to what I have achieved
 That I walked a long way
 it will be my dearest
 when you will dream about me
 You'll regret
 Because you don't know a lot about me
 I am a precious treasure
 ... not like you, bottom ...
 00:00 03/04/2003 

Aspirations

 I have no inspiration
 There is no respite
 I want to forget
 I'm still in illusion
 Hope's waking up
 That he wants me
 That I'm not at the bottom
 You know what?
 I don't know who ...
 But I'm not wrong
 And what I say I know
 Everything will be as I wish
 If need it, I will shout it out
 03:15 27.03.2003 

Love hurts

 beautiful lady
 wonderful dress
 my misery
 orchid flowers
 around ten glimmers
 the candle's on fire
 slowly in the radiance's dying
 I cannot pant
 I want to hear
 that he loves me
 that he knows about me
 those lovely lips
 the glass is empty
 01:40 27.03.2003