Always with you

 A desire which makes you feel bad
 A desire which doesn’t let you live
 A desire you feel all the time...
 
 When you sleep...
 When you walk...
 When you dream...
 When you walk...
 
 You want to stop,
 You want to feel pleased
 You want to be free...
 
 You don’t know how to cope
 You forgot your hope
 You feel stressed out
 You don’t know what’s that all about
 
 You feel it is enough
 Feeling strange
 Have no range
 Have nothing there
 Can’t ever swear
 Feeling is awful. 

Before I said

 Living hell
 Well...
 Got anything to say?
 I guess you wanna run away
 Before just gone may
 But you cannot yet
 First you must luck get
 The one you’ll see in your hair
 So you will know it is fair
 To know me
 To good be
 To find the gold
 Which never could be sold
 21:00 24.08.08 

Please change my life

 Want to fly with stars
 Want to run with the wind
 Want to have fun
 Want to be free
 I’ll run away
 To the sky
 Or to my dream
 Close my life not to see my life
 Change the world I’m in
 Or I’ll close the door
 Then I’ll fade? In the bed
 Will look on the ceiling?
 Will watch cartoons on it
 My mind will run away
 And I will sing a song
 I will ride a horse
 Who was my only friend...
 12:10 21.08.08
 

The one for me

 You are a star
 Will you fly far?
 High on the sky...
 No time say hi!
 You think you know
 Everyone thinks... so?
 What your point is?
 Did you pay fees?
 Have you had your cake?
 Was it true or fake?
 Do you like eat cream?
 Careful it may steam...
 Do you know what to say?
 Do you know how much to pay?
 When you will fly,
 Will it be high?
 
 
 You say ‘no lie’
 After goodbye
 You don’t feel pain
 You feel insane...
 You try to love her
 In your mind it’s fair
 That no one wants you
 To wall you stack with glue
 You fond her easy
 You feel bit dizzy
 You have her socks
 You know she gave them to dogs
 You’re loosing at your belly
 You feel something smelly
 
 
 Your way to hell
 And you can’t fell
 You're out of your mind
 And you cannot find
 You’re tired with life
 You wanna have a knife
 To feel safe
 To people wave...
 You want to take a pill
 So your sores will heal
 Your sight got worse
 But you’re counting your sores
 You want to know you’re good very much
 You want someone to touch
 Very soft, so you feel
 There is a warm grill
 On the family table
 You want to know it’s not a label
 Family, that's what you want
 And you want to have your own band
 Before you can go by yourself
 We must be sure you’ve got the right wealth
 11:59 21.08.08 

Sweet honey

 You want to be full of loving
 You want to know you’re safely having
 Before you can go by yourself
 We must be sure you’ve got the right wealth
 
 
 You have some bad feelings?
 Does it happen something good it brings?
 Shall you bin it...?
 Shall you split it...?
 What you wanna do, know?
 Are you friends of foe?
 If so, who’s there?
 Who shall you call Sir?
 
 
 Have you been in the park?
 Was it when it was dark?
 Did you bring any toys?
 Have you met any boys?
 What says your voice?
 About your choice?
 
 
 Does it says you’ve done well?
 Does it let you ever fell?
 Who you are?
 Is your home far?
 
 
 Does it come to your mind?
 How far is behind?
 Do you know that I know perfectly...
 What’ gonna come suddenly!
 A fame and a flash
 That comes from your lash
 You will then sit,
 Wait for a bit
 And you will see
 That deep is your sea
 Now you can rest,
 Wait for a test.
 For life preparation
 With harsh confrontation
 You have to walk strong
 Can’t let anything go wrong
 Be sure what you do,
 Even if instead of red goes blue.
 Because of the steps that are bad
 Please try not to get mad
 Take it easy
 Just call lizzy
 She knows you well
 She will ring the bell
 She’s part of your soul
 That never away go
 She will keep you on track
 13:44 18.08.08 

Craving

 Desire is like fire
 Desire is like stone
 When it comes to you
 You know about who
 You love her
 You don’t love her
 You love what she wears
 You know that she cares
 You love her voice
 You know you made the right choice
 You want her to touch you there and there
 You want her to touch you everywhere
 You see the gloss in her eyes
 And you think ‘oh... nice!’
 31.05.08 

Find me

 I'm alone...
 unwanted
 ... unloved ...
 ... forgotten!
 Nobody knows about me,
 Nobody wants to know,
 Nobody is bothered,
 No one makes illusions
 I am not sure,
 I don't have durability,
 I don't have the ground either
 I'm like a bird!
 I fly in the air,
 I'm together with sadness ...
 ... and I go into madness!
 01:37 08/07/08 

What’s for me

 Disappointed
 Distracted
 In love and unwanted
 Broken
 Discouraged
 Embarrassed
 Filled with heat...
 I don't want to be her
 I don't want to go where memories are
 I want to have healthy wings
 I want the mystery to burst
 I want to see the glow of stars
 And warmth for me from all cities ...
 01:54 21/12/08 

Doll

 Broken and unwanted
 Depressed with the goal of life
 Manhunts through people
 Once, she was loved
 She was often in love
 Now, bad luck splashed
 Hidden in silence
 Stress devoted
 Defeated by no one
 No friendship given to her
 I'm disappearing now
 Far to fairytale
 I avoid the truth
 I penetrate the abyss
 18:11 22/09/08