The poem

 When I look at you
 I think whether it is true
 You don’t know what I think
 And you think to give me a ring
 
 You’re so sweet
 I’m so weak
 Want you to love me strong
 Don’t think if it’s wrong
 
 Every time with you have fun
 Never think to run
 Just walk slowly
 Don’t let dreams be lonely
 
 Have you forever
 Kiss you whenever
 You will hug me all the time
 We will have together wine
 
 I will touch
 You will watch
 We’ll make love
 And angel will be above
 
 Slow words will flow
 Sex will softly go
 Around heaven cream
 Down to earth will come a dream
 22:20 05.10.08

Pick me up

 Pollen fells from the sky
 Examines every corner
 Cat's behind one
 Fights with his nails
 He fights with his enemy
 I want to wake up
 Bore a little bit
 I don't give a thing no more
 In my head is banging
 Catch the desires
 Wanting come true
 Dont scratch any
 Later carefully snore
 13:02 20.09.04

Bad, bad

 100 pixies,
 Rebels
 Goes after me
 It aims to me
 They knock the door
 But they don't know
 That I will not open
 That I have my regulations
 And so I tricked them
 And my goals have recovered
 11:11 17.07.04

Lost

 I don't know anything anymore
 And I don't want anything anymore
 Only get far away
 Somewhere where birds are singing
 And the leaves from the trees gently fall
 Because I lost my orientation already
 In my thoughts I'm lost
 I don't know what's good? What a bad
 And everything I see is insipid
 I've got my dreams taken away
 My desires got stolen
 I was left with nothing
 Hm ... everything, wanted something
 Now nobody, nothing
 Just me
 ... I want to runaway
 And I don't know anything
 I don't want to know anything anymore ...
 23:22 19.05.2003

A piece from the heart”

 Take it in the hand
 Squirm and throw far away
 Let it flow in line
 Softly like fresh milk
 This anger, regret and pain
 All these sufferings
 They are like salt for a deep wound
 So, please, let my desires finally come true
 Let me forget the time
 Start everything from scratch
 To squeeze mistakes in the copper belt
 So it would be possible to tell that the evil is hiding from us
 14/4/03

Shh

 I would like him
 And only this
 I love him so much
 And for him I'm sobbing
 I do not know what to do
 Should I get it over?
 I suffer from everything
 What’s bad for me
 All my life
 At night wolf’s howling

Note

 
 I do not care about anyone
 So, I'm leaving
 Once I loved
 Because of that, I was crying
 After the my ass was kicked
 So I already have enough
 I will give you advice
 I still love a little bit
 It cuts me like a sword

Sadness

 Get on the next day
 I do not pity my life
 I will never be happy again
 Although I have never been malicious
 Cruel life
 Sad for me too
 It never was
 It's nice to me
 I will leave the herds
 Somewhere in warm  
 Maybe to heaven
 Where the moon is running

Surprise

 Introverted
 Nobody will know
 Screeching owl
 Speechless
 Someone will say
 There is not enough time
 A lot of noise

They…

 they have beaten my ambitions
 they did not hide they want to destroy me
 and here I am starting
 I walk, not bending legs
 I will make a revenge
 with just water and bread
 I will reach the top
 I’ll assure myself good
 for my family too;
 like such a small hedgehog
 awkward
 but neat
 defends himself
 it flies through forests
 and he wins!
 later he washes away
 me the same,
 Dear Mum
 I will show you too,
 what will happen will be true