Tag: #trauma

Mist

 My dreams wilted
 Memories have been teared apart
 My soul has been broken
 Voices in the head I smoother
 I feel shattered
 Like a conquered glass
 Today is the day
 I go through this hay
 I'm going to the room
 For holy peace
 You can find me there
 I will give you a favor
 23:26 26.11.04

Poet

 ... Again this doll...
 Yes, this lover
 The same character
 The same existence
 Is colorful
 Turns into fly
 Flies in the clouds,
 It doesn't know
 It knows
 It doesn't know
 And it knows!
 I already want to fly straight,
 No tiring.
 On neutral ground
 ' I don't want to suffer'
 23:39 25.11.04

Crazy

 All these blullshit
 Like hay fired
 Will be trashed, collapsed
 And all they steal
 And I'll fly in the mountains
 To the sun, to the sky, to the stars!!!
 In order to sleep later...
 Fall apart to be fulfilled
 ... Happy!
 Free, small, melted...
 ... So never again!
 Be lost!
 On the grass lie
 And count the clouds
 Then drowned in the leafs
 And swim in them...
 And not come out to the morning...
 11:20 09.11.04

Pick me up

 Pollen fells from the sky
 Examines every corner
 Cat's behind one
 Fights with his nails
 He fights with his enemy
 I want to wake up
 Bore a little bit
 I don't give a thing no more
 In my head is banging
 Catch the desires
 Wanting come true
 Dont scratch any
 Later carefully snore
 13:02 20.09.04

Black tulips

 Black tulips
 Bloom on the hill
 Bloom;
 There is smell spreading
 Spreading
 In the air which is breathing by...
 ...people with feelings
 But there is not many of them
 And it’s a lot of smell
 That’s way they are chock full of it
 And feel fear
 Because feel
 That they’ll understand that all
 What’s human’s mind desn’t comprehend
 17:22 02.10.03

Leaf of tulip

 
 Leaf flies under wind
 It overcomes difficulties
 It fights, quarrel...
 Trees deface him!
 He further thought less
 It flies memorial
 It flies so and flies
 In the end disintegrates
 ...his tiny fragments
 Revolve on the whole world
 And hurts everyone
 Who’s been hurting him
 When he was a human
 09:20 02.10.03

Flow of blood makes us float

 Blood in a hot woman
 Shivering coldly
 She cuddled in
 In a blanket, for the night
 Woke up in the morning
 With no soul, no body
 Only a shadow...
 And thoughts
 Same as every day
 Torture with no money
 Phaetetic entreaty
 Supplications of a woman
 Let them stay
 So they don’t mock her
 Thoughts aren’t listening
 Want to torture her
 But she is just only
 A little, innocent kid
 Poor little girl
 In a shield of a strong woman
 Too grown up
 And yet too small
 She found herself in the wrong place
 At the wrong time
 Now she wants to get outside
 Away from this envy around her
 High to the clouds to the God
 Not to hear anymore...
 Not to see anymore...
 Not to feel anymore...
 ...and not to think!
 11:16 24.09.03

A poet out of theme

 Wind blows the hair
 Water in the pond
 And butterflies’s wings
 And you...
 And us...
 Like a walk in clouds
 In the ocean of stars
 Drown in the moon
 Only us...
 Not you...
 I want to drive in a delight
 Scream from fear
 From boredom yawn
 And know only one
 Only you and me
 Not be scared so often
 As i was supposed to
 Don’t ever feel fear
 Let it go away
 I want to feel safe
 By my angel
 He’ll look after me
 And love and be
 And never again...
 ...will walk away
 Never ever leave me
 21:08 21.09.03

They…

 they have beaten my ambitions
 they did not hide they want to destroy me
 and here I am starting
 I walk, not bending legs
 I will make a revenge
 with just water and bread
 I will reach the top
 I’ll assure myself good
 for my family too;
 like such a small hedgehog
 awkward
 but neat
 defends himself
 it flies through forests
 and he wins!
 later he washes away
 me the same,
 Dear Mum
 I will show you too,
 what will happen will be true