Revenge

 I'm loosing my will
 Because nothing works out
 Everything ends on nothing
 My goals are soaked in hate
 I'm trying to fight it 
 Making plans for the future
 But I lack the strength
 Because I am choked with human's jealousy dust
 ... but I will do my things
 Before I will die
 They will regret
 I will not have mercy anymore
 22:30 08.05.03 

Afraid of now

 My enemy is fear
 I have to destroy him!
 I can't be scared
 I have to give as much energy as I have
 I don't know what to do
 I'm still alone
 I'm dealing with everything on my own
 And I know I hamper everybody around
 Everyone feels I'm in the way
 And I bother you all
 I can't see the beginning
 I'm not ashamed of myself
 I don't feel the end
 I out of strength
 10:30 07.05.03