Why

Why all my dreams ...
 ... bring me to a boil?
 Why I can not ...
 ... and my dreams are going so slowly?
 No friend ...
 ... makes my sadness deeper!
 I really don't care anymore ...
 ... because everything in my head is cut with a knife!
 I was awaiting help....
 ... I was stupid to expect it!
 Now I don't want anything anymore ...
 ... because it's all a joke!
 I'm not expecting anything ...
 ... because everything is filled with evil!
 So I'm going from here ...
 ... I do not know yet where.
 But I will have a think ...
 ... and my soul will not tell anyone!
 09:40 12/05/03 

Tsarist courier

 These are my dreams ...
 Desirous of fulfillment
 And that's all
 It's all fake!
 It is not worth anything!
 It was supposed to be so ...
 It was only a pain ...
 I am not allowed to dream!
 I am not allowed to live!
 Sorrow is remained
 Happiness not by inch
 Have I made a mistake?
 I will go away!
 My tears are falling
 And lost dreams
 This is my life
 And you will free me
 From this ...
 ... everything bad
 Shroud of love
 No joy