 I give myself some advice
 And they won't have any defects
 Do everything about slowly
 Then disappear quietly
 09:27 29.05.03

Lost

 I don't know anything anymore
 And I don't want anything anymore
 Only get far away
 Somewhere where birds are singing
 And the leaves from the trees gently fall
 Because I lost my orientation already
 In my thoughts I'm lost
 I don't know what's good? What a bad
 And everything I see is insipid
 I've got my dreams taken away
 My desires got stolen
 I was left with nothing
 Hm ... everything, wanted something
 Now nobody, nothing
 Just me
 ... I want to runaway
 And I don't know anything
 I don't want to know anything anymore ...
 23:22 19.05.2003

The end

 My delusions
 sleepy dreams
 some unknown thoughts 
 defeated desires 
 I lost my sense
 luck for one bite ...
 THE END!
 The body is floating
 Mind suffers failure
 To heaven, to stars, to clouds
 It goes into dark 
 To spend its last breath
 Later eternal dreaming ...
 11:15 08.04.03

Guess what

 Loving it plathonically
 You can limitlessly
 I do not want to live anymore
 I would like to eternally sleep
 It all hurts
 It smudged me with thorns
 Intrusive thoughts
 Wild morals

Shh

 I would like him
 And only this
 I love him so much
 And for him I'm sobbing
 I do not know what to do
 Should I get it over?
 I suffer from everything
 What’s bad for me
 All my life
 At night wolf’s howling

Note

 
 I do not care about anyone
 So, I'm leaving
 Once I loved
 Because of that, I was crying
 After the my ass was kicked
 So I already have enough
 I will give you advice
 I still love a little bit
 It cuts me like a sword

Sadness

 Get on the next day
 I do not pity my life
 I will never be happy again
 Although I have never been malicious
 Cruel life
 Sad for me too
 It never was
 It's nice to me
 I will leave the herds
 Somewhere in warm  
 Maybe to heaven
 Where the moon is running

They…

 they have beaten my ambitions
 they did not hide they want to destroy me
 and here I am starting
 I walk, not bending legs
 I will make a revenge
 with just water and bread
 I will reach the top
 I’ll assure myself good
 for my family too;
 like such a small hedgehog
 awkward
 but neat
 defends himself
 it flies through forests
 and he wins!
 later he washes away
 me the same,
 Dear Mum
 I will show you too,
 what will happen will be true

…

 
 One day my rage
 Will touche every enemy
 Mine
 He'll regret all the bad
 He have done to my heart
 The revenge will be sweet
 There'll be threads of hatred there
 Begin now to regret
 Spit on your life
 Although it will do nothing
 It'll throw up like chalk
 It's your end
 And my bishop

I tell you

 
 They betrayed me
 They mocked me
 they mocked
 But they made a mistake
 They will regret it
 That they are on me
 Because I'm going to the top
 And the failure won't be diminished