Tag: #pain

Ash

 A drop of blood fallen down
 Now laughing at me like a clown
 Laughing in my face
 ‘That is in your veins’
 Unfortunately not me
 I want to be free
 Don’t feel it no more
 As a hurt spectator
 Lie without moving
 Forget the growing
 Then fell of the chair
 Forget what to wear
 Now I will be safe
 No matter where’s the wave
 That I will no stop
 That I will just walk
 18:50 16.09.03

Depression

 Skull mine broke
 My face faded
 Blood everywhere
 I think of mine
 Cry away
 Have moment of love
 Swim below the waves
 Jump above the field
 This is all I want
 All for what I swear
 Woman in a cape
 Her face whole swollen
 From her eyes whole tears
 And all bad moments in day light
 She’s craving in pain
 She’ll never forget them
 September 2009

Love hurts

 You are so far away, I feel you so close 
 hear your breathing and feel your warm lips
 when I close my eyes You approach
 you come ... you're cuddling me
 I want to touch you
 ...but
 I pull out my hand and you're gone
 I would like you to be with me
 I would like to have you
 I love you so much...
 I don't know why
 But I love!
 I don't want to love you!
 But I can't stop ...
 If you answered with only a word to what I say ...
 If you tried to help, at least once!
 If you'd try to disappear from my thoughts
 Enough!!!
 I will never mention you again
 I will never again say your name
 And I will never think of you again
 ... but I will never forget about you either...
 10:40 22/05/03

Only her

 a forgotten lover
 like a broken glass
 lies somewhere in the dark
 sad, without joy
 lies so cold ...
 bird's flying over her
 at crossroads
 full of tears of regret
 unloved and unwanted
 she sighs heart broken
 oh ... poor, sensitive creature
 your sad memories
 forget everything
 in this lurking evil
 so cold, naked
 Your sins being weigh 
 these sins to him
 Don't remember this
 he's not worth you
 that he met you, it was his luck
 21:30 20/04/2003

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 One day my rage
 Will touche every enemy
 Mine
 He'll regret all the bad
 He have done to my heart
 The revenge will be sweet
 There'll be threads of hatred there
 Begin now to regret
 Spit on your life
 Although it will do nothing
 It'll throw up like chalk
 It's your end
 And my bishop

My lost life

 I lost my sense ...
 I don't even know where
 And that's shooting me
 Robbed of my soul
 Like a river after drought
 Will I ever find it?
 Those 100 lost moments
 And 1000 more
 Around no one's guilty ???
 No no! It's not like that...
 For me, only bad taste
 I don't want to live like this!
 I still have to hide ...
 It's tiring me
 Still wants revenge
 I'm dying here
 I want to tell him
 that I love him
 I'm sobbing for him ...
 Oh! But he is also gone
 So that's my tear
 like an ice floe
 It will just disappear ...
 and I'll jump off the bridge
 Will tell you goodbye
 And grief others

Silience

 
 horrible moans
 these horrible sounds
 it hurts me all
 and one day will let
 survive the lost moments
 and undone miles
 I will die beautifly
 like birds are flying
 My dreams are flowing
 and make others rebel
 I'm over it now
 my life flow
 somewhere far
 it will flow like milk
 my body
 will sleep forever
 I will not come back here
 I will hum once for you
 the song dear to me
 and never evil
 close to my heart
 by the golden grave

Painful

 
 I don't want to remember
 So I don't bend
 Everything will pass by
 And I will disappear silently
 Pain will remain
 And lots of distress
 Just as I want
 Wherever I want, everywhere
 You will be plowed
 But you probably know that already ...
 I will humble my relatives
 In the eaves of the satin
 Away from the noise
 It will be good for them
 I will be generous to them
 And disappear
 Jump to another Universe
 01:30 28/03/2003