To God

 Dizziness...
 The owl is looking
 Hunger disturbs from living
 When I get up in the morning.
 I don't know what to do
 Should I not eat?
 I'm empty
 I can't put anything in my mouth
 Taste the power
 Cry for help!
 Dig up what is disturbing
 Find who is good at advise
 A sincere angel
 That I wouldn't get too crazy about
 That he would enjoy with me
 That he would not hurry
 Know I'm strong
 And a fallible thought is nothing bad
 18:33 28/08/08

Depression

 I felt I had inspiration
 But that was just a memory ...
 I remember evil,
 And his background.
 I remember good,
 How generously it took care of me
 I remember the pain
 And this one
 In which he was
 Hiding from everyone
 Only I saw him
 I didn't tell anyone
 I saw it differently today
 As I should see rather
 A peace of me broke out
 And it was suffering
 It gave me strength
 It turned out who is nice to me
 03:58 28/08/08

One Touch

 To kiss the sky
 To go for a ride
 With the sun
 With the moon
 To have that confidence
 To know it’s the luck!
 You’re lucky
 I'm lucky
 We’re lucky
 They’re lucky
 Never doubt our luck
 That is the key to life
 17:30 02.08.08

Desire

 Curbed
 In the dream, immersed
 I write poems
 Then first
 He knows that somewhere
 The tidings will be gone
 That she is not alone
 That she is loved
 So will get what she wants
 That her soul wouldn't hurt
 She wants to be loved
 And blessed with God's 
 I want to be loved
 I want to be remembered
 I want my mother's happiness
 I want all ladies to respect her
 01:55 12/05/08

Tamed

 I'm afraid to sleep
 I'm afraid to be scared
 But I don't want to know
 I want this evil to stop fading
 I feel like getting up
 Sums to sing
 Rejoice with joy
 Start pouring joyfully
 To my bed
 To my granary
 I want my gold root
 It turned into the gold of the sea
 I ask for God's grace
 She gave me happiness
 01:44 12/05/08

A line of inspiration

 Disappointed...
 ... and abandoned
 Discouraged ...
 ... and desperate
 Lost...
 ... and scratchy
 Description is blurry, shoddy and redundant!
 I don't feel myself,
 I'm flying in the sky ...
 I don't know that light
 Where to find, to find it was easy
 I'm hot
 Absorbed with heat 
 Whole boiling
 With exhaustion, I barely breath
 I don't know what to do
 I don't want to blame myself for that!
 Lost, scattered,
 Weeping, gasping
 Dilapidated - powerless!
 Beloved being,
 Beautiful, good and unusual
 Which is haunted by malice
 There is no end!
 There is no sing of my messenger ...
 blue-eyed,
 Always cheerful ...
 With white wings
 He is flying high with my desires!
 21:16 23/09/07

A butterfly that brought back hope

 I saw a little green butterfly
 Who was flying high
 High over the earth
 He could fly higher
 But he was flying like it so
 I could see him
 Should it be me who will see him
 And understood
 That we could be flying high
 And higher
 01:39 06.03.06

Future

 I soak dreams
 How a spark the fire
 How is it with you?
 You have them?
 What do you want to do with them?
 Because I...
 ... I would like to put them on the ship
 Big empty ship
 In order for them to swim away
 Before I do this
 I'll set fire to the ship
 So the dreams burn with him
 Well...
 What about me?
 I'll go under the tree
 Sit
 And I will wait
 20:30 17.11.04

In the edge of mind

 I don't want to wake the memories up
 I won't be fighting to make them stand up
 And just  
 As lust
 I will create
 Multiply the magic
 No matter the pain
 I won’t let my heart feel insane
 I will get my aims
 I will get what flows in my veins
 I have a hope
 I’ll overcome their dope
 I will be trying!
 From now I’m flying!
 21:45 29.08.03

Lost hope

 I'm strange here
 I want to see the boy
 Which will free me
 Cold down my powers
 Balloons of words are flying
 All lost dreams
 There is a beautiful mirror
 Every door is closed
 Only one is open
 When I see them, I'm pale
 They are wide open 
 Ragged sheeting in them
 Whole barred ...
 and bowed promises!
 23:25 16/05/03