Tag: #future

Depression

 I felt I had inspiration
 But that was just a memory ...
 I remember evil,
 And his background.
 I remember good,
 How generously it took care of me
 I remember the pain
 And this one
 In which he was
 Hiding from everyone
 Only I saw him
 I didn't tell anyone
 I saw it differently today
 As I should see rather
 A peace of me broke out
 And it was suffering
 It gave me strength
 It turned out who is nice to me
 03:58 28/08/08

Future

 I soak dreams
 How a spark the fire
 How is it with you?
 You have them?
 What do you want to do with them?
 Because I...
 ... I would like to put them on the ship
 Big empty ship
 In order for them to swim away
 Before I do this
 I'll set fire to the ship
 So the dreams burn with him
 Well...
 What about me?
 I'll go under the tree
 Sit
 And I will wait
 20:30 17.11.04

Crazy

 All these blullshit
 Like hay fired
 Will be trashed, collapsed
 And all they steal
 And I'll fly in the mountains
 To the sun, to the sky, to the stars!!!
 In order to sleep later...
 Fall apart to be fulfilled
 ... Happy!
 Free, small, melted...
 ... So never again!
 Be lost!
 On the grass lie
 And count the clouds
 Then drowned in the leafs
 And swim in them...
 And not come out to the morning...
 11:20 09.11.04

My new, clean step

 
 A sheet of golden paper
 There is a new list on it
 Other enterprises
 Even the budget cut
 There is nothing more
 There is no one to say 'hi'
 Feelings change
 They don't give a reason
 When everything is coming to an end
 You can see small angels with a whip
 Whether the end will be good or bad
 They always get away from bad dreams
 I want to have someone
 I want someone to want to hug me
 I am ashamed to show you crying
 I am ashamed to show my shame
 I love innocence so much
 I love my otherness
 I love to sunbathe
 ... and knock down on other wine
 02:48 1/15/04

In a cage

 In a golden bowl a slave
 In front of black wheel
 Puts on green and goes ahead
 Still remembering her pain
 From her bloody flashes glow
 She remembers her gaming
 How she played
 How tunes went
 She remembers all the moves
 She remembers empty groves
 On which she was seating
 When her heart wasn’t beating
 16:00 09.09.03

Without title

 Eyelets watering
 My hands are tucked in
 In the fresh down ...
 ... I hear the singing
 Is this a joyful song?
 Just like a poem ...
 Or rather mocking?
 Or maybe different ...?
 Planets are spinning
 Chops are frying
 Crazy life
 Like cast noodles
 What should I do?
 My melody walked
 Ha!
 It didn't come anywhere
 Now it doesn't know where it went
 But it will go far
 Surely will find me
 And we'll go together
 And we both know it
 Rest...
 Will stay in my mind
 Crying won't touch my eyes!
 01:29 07.06.03

Future

 I'm sitting and watching
 Bending over my fate
 I don't know what's going on
 When it's going to be morning and the cock will crow
 What will happen to me?
 Will the sun rise for me once more
 In general unaware
 Everyone is full of enmity to me
 I'm not making it anymore
 I'm keeping up
 I don't have strength anymore
 To wash out from here
 I want to finish it
 Go away
 And they'll probably call me a coward
 But I won't stand on the way of risk again
 Because I can't carry on
 12:18 12/05/03

Magic

 I feel betrayed
 Everything dies in me
 Nothing works out
 I don't care anymore
 I expected help
 And tonight
 I surprises everyone
 A thriving forest will be created
 And it will destroy you
 My desires will fulfill
 The emptiness in me will fill
 23/3/03

Encouragement

 
 I don't know what's truth and what now
 That's how much you killed me
 I sit here even know where
 And all of my thoughts, feelings something's cutting
 I turn around in it
 And I don't know why
 I want to be released 
 Take some time to slow down
 Watch life
 Look at others
 It is impossible
 Those sad moments
 They stayed behind me
 They won't come back
 And I'm just sad
 I think I can change that?
 I feel sorry
 For wasted life
 I can't finish like this
 Everyone wants to worm me
 I can not give it!
 I'm going to sleep now...
 Will think in the morning
 I will give it another name
 It'll be as I want
 Not important where
 ... but my way
 I will give control to my dream