Tag: #faith

To God

 Dizziness...
 The owl is looking
 Hunger disturbs from living
 When I get up in the morning.
 I don't know what to do
 Should I not eat?
 I'm empty
 I can't put anything in my mouth
 Taste the power
 Cry for help!
 Dig up what is disturbing
 Find who is good at advise
 A sincere angel
 That I wouldn't get too crazy about
 That he would enjoy with me
 That he would not hurry
 Know I'm strong
 And a fallible thought is nothing bad
 18:33 28/08/08

Depression

 I felt I had inspiration
 But that was just a memory ...
 I remember evil,
 And his background.
 I remember good,
 How generously it took care of me
 I remember the pain
 And this one
 In which he was
 Hiding from everyone
 Only I saw him
 I didn't tell anyone
 I saw it differently today
 As I should see rather
 A peace of me broke out
 And it was suffering
 It gave me strength
 It turned out who is nice to me
 03:58 28/08/08

Desire

 Curbed
 In the dream, immersed
 I write poems
 Then first
 He knows that somewhere
 The tidings will be gone
 That she is not alone
 That she is loved
 So will get what she wants
 That her soul wouldn't hurt
 She wants to be loved
 And blessed with God's 
 I want to be loved
 I want to be remembered
 I want my mother's happiness
 I want all ladies to respect her
 01:55 12/05/08

Tamed

 I'm afraid to sleep
 I'm afraid to be scared
 But I don't want to know
 I want this evil to stop fading
 I feel like getting up
 Sums to sing
 Rejoice with joy
 Start pouring joyfully
 To my bed
 To my granary
 I want my gold root
 It turned into the gold of the sea
 I ask for God's grace
 She gave me happiness
 01:44 12/05/08

Future

 I soak dreams
 How a spark the fire
 How is it with you?
 You have them?
 What do you want to do with them?
 Because I...
 ... I would like to put them on the ship
 Big empty ship
 In order for them to swim away
 Before I do this
 I'll set fire to the ship
 So the dreams burn with him
 Well...
 What about me?
 I'll go under the tree
 Sit
 And I will wait
 20:30 17.11.04

My new, clean step

 
 A sheet of golden paper
 There is a new list on it
 Other enterprises
 Even the budget cut
 There is nothing more
 There is no one to say 'hi'
 Feelings change
 They don't give a reason
 When everything is coming to an end
 You can see small angels with a whip
 Whether the end will be good or bad
 They always get away from bad dreams
 I want to have someone
 I want someone to want to hug me
 I am ashamed to show you crying
 I am ashamed to show my shame
 I love innocence so much
 I love my otherness
 I love to sunbathe
 ... and knock down on other wine
 02:48 1/15/04

Escape

 I'm sitting here with my thoughts
 With floating tears
 I think what will happen next
 Because I don't see anything everywhere
 All the emptiness around
 I'm not happy
 I want to run away
 Delay no more
 I can't stand it anymore
 I have enough of evil
 As far as possible
 In some warm corner
 And there let it happen
 Like a rooster crowing
 Like the sun will shine
 Let children play
 21:25 10.05.2003

I will overcome

 I want to throw it all away!
 freely sing songs carelessly
 I want to fly to heaven
 not worry about the lack of bread
 I would like to touch the clouds
 and overcome the fear of the wall
 I want to feel safe
 as the eternal book wrote
 it's so hard to express it
 not to feel wrong about it
 but I don't know how
 because I silent everything by it
 just please, one more thing
 ...I will try, maybe I can suffer a moment longer
 for one person
 who will help me destroy this frowst
 21:25 10.05.2003