The sun

 I don't know what will happen tomorrow
 Which fur the day wear for us
 So you have to live a moment
 Let the dreams run freely
 I won't show my weaknesses to anyone
 Because they are full of conveniences for others
 They are all happy when I stumble
 But I am disappearing to the amazement of all soon
 I don't want to be afraid anymore
 I will sleep peacefully
 Not worry anymore about the next day
 Because I know what it'll bring
 Just do everything like my heart says!
 Do it like my soul paints!
 Live in this second!
 ... besides, it is unknown what awaits in the next round!
 02:33 31/05/03

Fantasy

 I don't know what else to write
 I don't want to write too much
 I really got fooled
 I didn't know at one time
 Now I know everything
 and understand nothing
 I'd rather not know
 sit like a pure idiot
 A lot of writing
 for me, sucking despair
 I would like to talk to whom
 fall no more off the tables
 It would be nice
 if dreams were fulfilled
 ... I have several more
 everyone is like one moment
 Small, agile and light
 sometimes a little silly
 But mine!
 as for a horse's hay roll
 And I'm very happy
 when they have trouble I run to help
 Because these dreams are only mine
 where I want are stucked
 I will do anything with them
 I will not do what I do not want!
 12:14 23.05.2003

Lost

 I don't know anything anymore
 And I don't want anything anymore
 Only get far away
 Somewhere where birds are singing
 And the leaves from the trees gently fall
 Because I lost my orientation already
 In my thoughts I'm lost
 I don't know what's good? What a bad
 And everything I see is insipid
 I've got my dreams taken away
 My desires got stolen
 I was left with nothing
 Hm ... everything, wanted something
 Now nobody, nothing
 Just me
 ... I want to runaway
 And I don't know anything
 I don't want to know anything anymore ...
 23:22 19.05.2003

A few wishes

 I want to leave here
 I want to come to the sun
 Sit in the shade
 On a wooden stone
 Where no one will spit on me anymore
 Neither snarl against me
 I want some peace
 I want to get out of this scroll
 05/03/03

Journey

 Soon I will conquer the world
 None of my enemies will disturb me
 I will get what I aim for
 What can do I will show you
 Another day is coming
 More sorrows and sadness
 I know one day the shadow of bad luck
 I will burn in a huge fire
 I'm still fighting with this
 Hurting myself
 I will cry a lot
 And probably hurt my hands
 I sit in the abyss of this world
 Fate still plays on me
 22:20 08.04.03

The end

 My delusions
 sleepy dreams
 some unknown thoughts 
 defeated desires 
 I lost my sense
 luck for one bite ...
 THE END!
 The body is floating
 Mind suffers failure
 To heaven, to stars, to clouds
 It goes into dark 
 To spend its last breath
 Later eternal dreaming ...
 11:15 08.04.03

I win

 I'm just out of space
 You won't know, I'll die ...
 But first I will show you
 That I will infect everything with me
 Everything will know me, and respect ...
 Even that which wasn't respectful to me
 Everyone will prostrate before me
 Even a flock of beautiful elephants
 A small leaf in the shade of trees
 also...
 and you, my enemy ...
 traitor...
 every creature in the world!
 13.07 04/04/2003

Encouragement

 
 I don't know what's truth and what now
 That's how much you killed me
 I sit here even know where
 And all of my thoughts, feelings something's cutting
 I turn around in it
 And I don't know why
 I want to be released 
 Take some time to slow down
 Watch life
 Look at others
 It is impossible
 Those sad moments
 They stayed behind me
 They won't come back
 And I'm just sad
 I think I can change that?
 I feel sorry
 For wasted life
 I can't finish like this
 Everyone wants to worm me
 I can not give it!
 I'm going to sleep now...
 Will think in the morning
 I will give it another name
 It'll be as I want
 Not important where
 ... but my way
 I will give control to my dream

It will go

I would like to throw away
Never again feel sadness
... sigh
That's probably my fate
Life threw on the pile
And I gave a little bit of bone
I have to deal with it
Go out against everything
Help my goal
I will make it
Because I have many predispositions
predispositions...
...ambitions...
...and everything you need
To conquer the world !!!

A song

1) Sitting alone in a small room  
 Candles quietly burn  
 And I think so much about you  
 Why to be? And why it is?  
 Ref. I was once a small child  
 And there were stars in my eyes  
 A radiant smile, no worries  
 That was my whole world  
 2) I've been wondering for years  
 What will be the next fate  
 Will my dreams
 Ever come true  
 Ref. I was once a small child  
 And there were stars in my eyes  
 A radiant smile, no worries  
 That was my whole world