Tag: #depression

Pick me up

 Pollen fells from the sky
 Examines every corner
 Cat's behind one
 Fights with his nails
 He fights with his enemy
 I want to wake up
 Bore a little bit
 I don't give a thing no more
 In my head is banging
 Catch the desires
 Wanting come true
 Dont scratch any
 Later carefully snore
 13:02 20.09.04

Nothing

I go, I don't know for what  
I go... I don't know where  
I feel I don't know what  
And I'm afraid of everything!  
... and I don't know why 
should I be scared...  
I do not want to live  
To live like someone wants me to  
I want to live to be happy  
That it is me  
And the truth is...!  
I live until I have strength,  
Do it by myself  
11:49 17.09.04

Black tulips

 Black tulips
 Bloom on the hill
 Bloom;
 There is smell spreading
 Spreading
 In the air which is breathing by...
 ...people with feelings
 But there is not many of them
 And it’s a lot of smell
 That’s way they are chock full of it
 And feel fear
 Because feel
 That they’ll understand that all
 What’s human’s mind desn’t comprehend
 17:22 02.10.03

Leaf of tulip

 
 Leaf flies under wind
 It overcomes difficulties
 It fights, quarrel...
 Trees deface him!
 He further thought less
 It flies memorial
 It flies so and flies
 In the end disintegrates
 ...his tiny fragments
 Revolve on the whole world
 And hurts everyone
 Who’s been hurting him
 When he was a human
 09:20 02.10.03

The beauty of

 One day, one night
 And one more morning
 And so day by day
 Please do something about it
 Its like slow death
 Angels flew away
 I have stayed
 On a silk bedding
 Monotony, boredom still
 Still the same ' alone '
 And I'm afraid
 I don't know anything
 I want... already enough
 00:22 20.04.04

Porcelain Doll

 Birds fly in golden colors...
 The sky is in the pink...
 ... Over the pond a girl blushing...
 She sits and delights in the scent of the fresh lily harvested!
 ... and listens...
 Birds singing on the trees...
 ... Water noise, done by the wind!
 Shes quietly humming...
 ... A song about ripped mountains....
 Now, when the sun gone,
 Hear everything that the day said to us,  
 We know that mercy is the bottom...
 When every word is a shadow...
 Every minute, important as a treasure
 And every word is a pain!
 We know too much...
 ... I am important...
 ... a wooden ward...
 ... Beware of her word...
 There's written how to go,
 How to dream...
 And how to life.
 Shame for love,
 For this cruelty...
 She'll show us the world!
 Good, respect and desire
 Show only for these
 Who are the growers of these virtues.
 I loved the world...
 I loved us...
 ... Now I don't love anything!
 When the sun rises again,
 Miss will open her eyes!
 Will smile to golden waves...
 With a smile, squint her eyelets
 Later, she will approach her doll,
 ... And forget...
 22:38 28.02.04

My angel of dark

 1.I hope I will be dancing 
 When the moon is dark
 Behind in my blood
 It will float
 Dance with me
 At moon’s brilliance
  Ref. Because my sun
 Forever
 For the day and for the night
 Please come to me
 And stay
 2.I look out everywhere 
 ...think
 You look for me too
 I look at you my angel
 My charmed angel
 17:02 30.09.03

Flow of blood makes us float

 Blood in a hot woman
 Shivering coldly
 She cuddled in
 In a blanket, for the night
 Woke up in the morning
 With no soul, no body
 Only a shadow...
 And thoughts
 Same as every day
 Torture with no money
 Phaetetic entreaty
 Supplications of a woman
 Let them stay
 So they don’t mock her
 Thoughts aren’t listening
 Want to torture her
 But she is just only
 A little, innocent kid
 Poor little girl
 In a shield of a strong woman
 Too grown up
 And yet too small
 She found herself in the wrong place
 At the wrong time
 Now she wants to get outside
 Away from this envy around her
 High to the clouds to the God
 Not to hear anymore...
 Not to see anymore...
 Not to feel anymore...
 ...and not to think!
 11:16 24.09.03

Innocent

 Soft face drowning
 You can dream
 She is slowly walking
 Bare feel, quiet with no sound
 Enters cloudy mug
 Walks straight to her sword
 She will take into her hand
 Drown in it she will land
 Blood will flow in heavy tears
 She will go with her won wound
 She’ll go far with no return
 In her mind the wall will burn
 17:57 09.09.03