Unknown thoughts

 And I'm waiting forever ...
 And decided that I won't delay anything anymore,
 I have always been mistaken
 Because I was stuck in one place
 So I'm moving forward
 I'm doing it for no bigger reason
 I will not wonder
 And I will not be afraid anymore
 I will go ahead
 Even on water and bread
 And will defeat everything
 In doorway my golden trophy will hang
 I will win this war
 Later, calm life awaits me
 I will still win trophies
 And the rest is my fairy tale
 12:20 16/04/03 

Magic

 I feel betrayed
 Everything dies in me
 Nothing works out
 I don't care anymore
 I expected help
 And tonight
 I surprises everyone
 A thriving forest will be created
 And it will destroy you
 My desires will fulfill
 The emptiness in me will fill
 23/3/03  

When I look at my hands
I think how to escape this torture
I don’t know the answer
I fighting with what is in my head
Want to free myself from it
I’m cursing from it
I fall into madness from this
I think things the other way round
I don’t know what’s going on
I watch the wind blows
I’m leaving
I go away