Mist

 My dreams wilted
 Memories have been teared apart
 My soul has been broken
 Voices in the head I smoother
 I feel shattered
 Like a conquered glass
 Today is the day
 I go through this hay
 I'm going to the room
 For holy peace
 You can find me there
 I will give you a favor
 23:26 26.11.04

I want to be free

 War is taking place all over me
 I'm not at all calm
 Lovers are begging
 By all forgotten
 I want forget everything
 Free myself from this
 From everything that's in me
 Here no crying will help
 I love the running rain
 I'm mindless, I know
 And all the memories I grind
 I don't want to remember anything anymore
 I don't want to look back
 I would like a one moment
 With my pour soul
 Live free as a bird
 Or cancer in the desert
 15:07 May 18, 2003

Guess what

 Loving it plathonically
 You can limitlessly
 I do not want to live anymore
 I would like to eternally sleep
 It all hurts
 It smudged me with thorns
 Intrusive thoughts
 Wild morals

Sadness

 Get on the next day
 I do not pity my life
 I will never be happy again
 Although I have never been malicious
 Cruel life
 Sad for me too
 It never was
 It's nice to me
 I will leave the herds
 Somewhere in warm  
 Maybe to heaven
 Where the moon is running

They…

 they have beaten my ambitions
 they did not hide they want to destroy me
 and here I am starting
 I walk, not bending legs
 I will make a revenge
 with just water and bread
 I will reach the top
 I’ll assure myself good
 for my family too;
 like such a small hedgehog
 awkward
 but neat
 defends himself
 it flies through forests
 and he wins!
 later he washes away
 me the same,
 Dear Mum
 I will show you too,
 what will happen will be true

I tell you

 
 They betrayed me
 They mocked me
 they mocked
 But they made a mistake
 They will regret it
 That they are on me
 Because I'm going to the top
 And the failure won't be diminished

Stop!

 I've had enough!  
 Just enough!  
 It's all like rotting bone!  
 Tiring me!  
 Wants revenge!  
 Everything happens in spite of me  
 And makes fun of me  
 Nobody needs me here  
 Nobody loves me  
 I am superfluous  
 How evil, necessary  
 I want to get out  
 Not to come back  
 Never grieve again  
 One of my tears
 For all the world  
 Beautiful like a rose flower
 Adieu!

With him

 A warm morning
 sea breeze
 They are cuddled up in each other
 They are kissing
 Sun rays
 Are touching her face
 And he is still hugging her
 And they would like it to be always so
 Only she and him
 They want to be together day and night
 And they would like to stop time
 ... be together til the end
 Beginning 2003

Lovers

 She... and he
 Around dark, silence
 Only she and he
 Dawn is waking
 A new day
 They’re ling in trees leaf’s
 Their body’s braided
 Whole shiver
 Lovers from hundred hills
 Smolder each other
 Suddenly sea is walking up
 And quietly saying to them
 That is morning, they’ve to go
 To the land of their dreams

New start

Love is a beautiful thing 
As long as it doesn't cut feelings like sword
And when lips touch other the lips 
Then I feel so empty 
Only emotions in me are still spinning 
And when it hurts, they pinch 
Recently I have realized 
I have fallen out of many things 
Sometimes I want to fix them 
But some can't be fixed 
I also know that an effort is needed 
To avoid many mistakes 
I'm planning to improve everything 
And have fun doing it 
Begining 2003