Depression

 I felt I had inspiration
 But that was just a memory ...
 I remember evil,
 And his background.
 I remember good,
 How generously it took care of me
 I remember the pain
 And this one
 In which he was
 Hiding from everyone
 Only I saw him
 I didn't tell anyone
 I saw it differently today
 As I should see rather
 A peace of me broke out
 And it was suffering
 It gave me strength
 It turned out who is nice to me
 03:58 28/08/08 

Thread

 I can't go to sleep
 I can't be scared
 I can't have dreams
 I can't leave the lions
 I don't want to know
 I don't want to say
 I have no strength
 I turn into dust
 I'm diluted
 With life finished
 I want to sleep on a cloud
 Maybe then I will fluster
 Maybe I'll get angry
 And will make a plan against mischief
 I will kill it
 Like it kills me
 Slowly, no noise
 Take me to the snow
 I will take it to a desert
 I will not have a problem anymore
 18:43 28/08/08 

Hole in your mind

 My file
 Like your library
 Thick and wide
 Like river deep
 A lot of reading there
 Greeting cards
 I have my weaknesses there
 The whole time of nausea
 I'm whole shaking yet
 I want my psyche to erase it
 Once and for all, specifically
 Let these dirt get off me
 21:54 02/09/08 

Touching the target

 
 Write a poem to the poet...
 In it will be only urgent's!
 Beautiful stories
 And famous glories
 Whatever you want
 How to do it you already know
 The poet will dive
 With what is in the middle of the storm...
 I'll be thrilled
 My talent finally saturated
 Take a leisurely sleep
 And just don't care
 00:02 19.11.04 

Without title

 Eyelets watering
 My hands are tucked in
 In the fresh down ...
 ... I hear the singing
 Is this a joyful song?
 Just like a poem ...
 Or rather mocking?
 Or maybe different ...?
 Planets are spinning
 Chops are frying
 Crazy life
 Like cast noodles
 What should I do?
 My melody walked
 Ha!
 It didn't come anywhere
 Now it doesn't know where it went
 But it will go far
 Surely will find me
 And we'll go together
 And we both know it
 Rest...
 Will stay in my mind
 Crying won't touch my eyes!
 01:29 07.06.03 

Elsewhere

 I want to run away
 Wash my dreams
 Start from the beginning
 Somewhere where the sun hides
 As far as possible
 In some warm corner
 Where I will be calm
 Where I will not be threatened by war
 In my soul
 Where I can forget my misery?
 23:08 19.05.03