Tag: #accident

Closed in self

 I can't write poems
 First one wasn't good either
 I lost myself in nothingness
 On my way to freedom!
 I can't count the stars
 It's also difficult to enter my heart
 I still hear a hissing sound
 I want this nightmare to disappear
 I have two hopes
 The wind will blow them away
 I want to kill the thoughts
 I want to lure you peacefully
 I want to get out
 I want to be free
 22:14 27/12/04

Mist

 My dreams wilted
 Memories have been teared apart
 My soul has been broken
 Voices in the head I smoother
 I feel shattered
 Like a conquered glass
 Today is the day
 I go through this hay
 I'm going to the room
 For holy peace
 You can find me there
 I will give you a favor
 23:26 26.11.04

Poet

 ... Again this doll...
 Yes, this lover
 The same character
 The same existence
 Is colorful
 Turns into fly
 Flies in the clouds,
 It doesn't know
 It knows
 It doesn't know
 And it knows!
 I already want to fly straight,
 No tiring.
 On neutral ground
 ' I don't want to suffer'
 23:39 25.11.04

Porcelain Doll

 Birds fly in golden colors...
 The sky is in the pink...
 ... Over the pond a girl blushing...
 She sits and delights in the scent of the fresh lily harvested!
 ... and listens...
 Birds singing on the trees...
 ... Water noise, done by the wind!
 Shes quietly humming...
 ... A song about ripped mountains....
 Now, when the sun gone,
 Hear everything that the day said to us,  
 We know that mercy is the bottom...
 When every word is a shadow...
 Every minute, important as a treasure
 And every word is a pain!
 We know too much...
 ... I am important...
 ... a wooden ward...
 ... Beware of her word...
 There's written how to go,
 How to dream...
 And how to life.
 Shame for love,
 For this cruelty...
 She'll show us the world!
 Good, respect and desire
 Show only for these
 Who are the growers of these virtues.
 I loved the world...
 I loved us...
 ... Now I don't love anything!
 When the sun rises again,
 Miss will open her eyes!
 Will smile to golden waves...
 With a smile, squint her eyelets
 Later, she will approach her doll,
 ... And forget...
 22:38 28.02.04

A poet out of theme

 Wind blows the hair
 Water in the pond
 And butterflies’s wings
 And you...
 And us...
 Like a walk in clouds
 In the ocean of stars
 Drown in the moon
 Only us...
 Not you...
 I want to drive in a delight
 Scream from fear
 From boredom yawn
 And know only one
 Only you and me
 Not be scared so often
 As i was supposed to
 Don’t ever feel fear
 Let it go away
 I want to feel safe
 By my angel
 He’ll look after me
 And love and be
 And never again...
 ...will walk away
 Never ever leave me
 21:08 21.09.03

Ash

 A drop of blood fallen down
 Now laughing at me like a clown
 Laughing in my face
 ‘That is in your veins’
 Unfortunately not me
 I want to be free
 Don’t feel it no more
 As a hurt spectator
 Lie without moving
 Forget the growing
 Then fell of the chair
 Forget what to wear
 Now I will be safe
 No matter where’s the wave
 That I will no stop
 That I will just walk
 18:50 16.09.03

Depression

 Skull mine broke
 My face faded
 Blood everywhere
 I think of mine
 Cry away
 Have moment of love
 Swim below the waves
 Jump above the field
 This is all I want
 All for what I swear
 Woman in a cape
 Her face whole swollen
 From her eyes whole tears
 And all bad moments in day light
 She’s craving in pain
 She’ll never forget them
 September 2009

Fear of now

I don't know what fate is preparing for me
Life is plotting against me
I feel alone, alone
In this world little, poor
I'm afraid of everything now
I stand on the crossroads to hell
I don't desire a lot
Friends have gone
Fear has power over me
The highest price from me wanted
I want to sleep
And cuddle a teddy bear
00:30 12.05.03

Why

Why all my dreams ...
 ... bring me to a boil?
 Why I can not ...
 ... and my dreams are going so slowly?
 No friend ...
 ... makes my sadness deeper!
 I really don't care anymore ...
 ... because everything in my head is cut with a knife!
 I was awaiting help....
 ... I was stupid to expect it!
 Now I don't want anything anymore ...
 ... because it's all a joke!
 I'm not expecting anything ...
 ... because everything is filled with evil!
 So I'm going from here ...
 ... I do not know yet where.
 But I will have a think ...
 ... and my soul will not tell anyone!
 09:40 12/05/03