Find me

 I'm alone...
 unwanted
 ... unloved ...
 ... forgotten!
 Nobody knows about me,
 Nobody wants to know,
 Nobody is bothered,
 No one makes illusions
 I am not sure,
 I don't have durability,
 I don't have the ground either
 I'm like a bird!
 I fly in the air,
 I'm together with sadness ...
 ... and I go into madness!
 01:37 08/07/08

What’s for me

 Disappointed
 Distracted
 In love and unwanted
 Broken
 Discouraged
 Embarrassed
 Filled with heat...
 I don't want to be her
 I don't want to go where memories are
 I want to have healthy wings
 I want the mystery to burst
 I want to see the glow of stars
 And warmth for me from all cities ...
 01:54 21/12/08

Doll

 Broken and unwanted
 Depressed with the goal of life
 Manhunts through people
 Once, she was loved
 She was often in love
 Now, bad luck splashed
 Hidden in silence
 Stress devoted
 Defeated by no one
 No friendship given to her
 I'm disappearing now
 Far to fairytale
 I avoid the truth
 I penetrate the abyss
 18:11 22/09/08

To God

 Dizziness...
 The owl is looking
 Hunger disturbs from living
 When I get up in the morning.
 I don't know what to do
 Should I not eat?
 I'm empty
 I can't put anything in my mouth
 Taste the power
 Cry for help!
 Dig up what is disturbing
 Find who is good at advise
 A sincere angel
 That I wouldn't get too crazy about
 That he would enjoy with me
 That he would not hurry
 Know I'm strong
 And a fallible thought is nothing bad
 18:33 28/08/08

Depression

 I felt I had inspiration
 But that was just a memory ...
 I remember evil,
 And his background.
 I remember good,
 How generously it took care of me
 I remember the pain
 And this one
 In which he was
 Hiding from everyone
 Only I saw him
 I didn't tell anyone
 I saw it differently today
 As I should see rather
 A peace of me broke out
 And it was suffering
 It gave me strength
 It turned out who is nice to me
 03:58 28/08/08

Thread

 I can't go to sleep
 I can't be scared
 I can't have dreams
 I can't leave the lions
 I don't want to know
 I don't want to say
 I have no strength
 I turn into dust
 I'm diluted
 With life finished
 I want to sleep on a cloud
 Maybe then I will fluster
 Maybe I'll get angry
 And will make a plan against mischief
 I will kill it
 Like it kills me
 Slowly, no noise
 Take me to the snow
 I will take it to a desert
 I will not have a problem anymore
 18:43 28/08/08

Hole in your mind

 My file
 Like your library
 Thick and wide
 Like river deep
 A lot of reading there
 Greeting cards
 I have my weaknesses there
 The whole time of nausea
 I'm whole shaking yet
 I want my psyche to erase it
 Once and for all, specifically
 Let these dirt get off me
 21:54 02/09/08

Desire

 Curbed
 In the dream, immersed
 I write poems
 Then first
 He knows that somewhere
 The tidings will be gone
 That she is not alone
 That she is loved
 So will get what she wants
 That her soul wouldn't hurt
 She wants to be loved
 And blessed with God's 
 I want to be loved
 I want to be remembered
 I want my mother's happiness
 I want all ladies to respect her
 01:55 12/05/08

Tamed

 I'm afraid to sleep
 I'm afraid to be scared
 But I don't want to know
 I want this evil to stop fading
 I feel like getting up
 Sums to sing
 Rejoice with joy
 Start pouring joyfully
 To my bed
 To my granary
 I want my gold root
 It turned into the gold of the sea
 I ask for God's grace
 She gave me happiness
 01:44 12/05/08