In the edge of mind

 I don't want to wake the memories up
 I won't be fighting to make them stand up
 And just  
 As lust
 I will create
 Multiply the magic
 No matter the pain
 I won’t let my heart feel insane
 I will get my aims
 I will get what flows in my veins
 I have a hope
 I’ll overcome their dope
 I will be trying!
 From now I’m flying!
 21:45 29.08.03

Agony

 These are my last moments
 I know it's not wrong
 I have quit everything
 I do not have the strength to endure it
 my body is limping
 the devil is laughing at me
 he has already defeated me
 he made his own
 my strength was taken away
 I have not been given a chance
 ... I don't know how to decide
 I'm not thinking about this right now ...
 17:20 02.07.03

End of world

 I do not trust the clouds  
 These people are coatings  
 Everyone is false  
 And terribly greedy  
 What do they want from me?  
 They are wasting, though in vain  
 Well ... I will not give them anything
 I run gently across the sky  
 I have nothing left  
 Although everything begged me for mercy
 Everyone wants to take from me more
 Getting the more for themselves  
 ... I do not have any more to give  
 So all of you want to screw me up!  
 Silly people
 Old grandfather chops nuts  
 ... he knows everything about me  
 He’ll not say, he’ll not say ...
 02:30 14.06.03

Disappear

 I will cuddle you last time
 Last time I’ll have a blast
 I will put you high
 Last time will let you put me down
 I will kiss you in a chic
 You will see I’m running freely
 We will go down slowly
 You won’t realize how folly
 You will feel it’s the end
 You’ll wonder where it went
 Man, you’re in a trap
 Do not forget the wrap
 Which is following you
 All the way glowing you
 It makes you disappear
 So you feel my fear
 And you’re nowhere no more
 Although you’re not a foe
 00:15 08.09.03

The edge

 This isn't important anymore
 When death is just right
 When love complains
 And luck long awaits
 And nothing matters
 When envy hisses
 Nothing literally!
 And I'm going to disappear
 Just me
 When my freedom let me go away
 Then I will tell everyone bye
 And nothing will be
 And every one of them
 I will spit in face
 And you punish them for my sufferings
 All of them I'll win with
 My receivables will be paid
 I will move forward
 I will bounce in the sky
 I will get what I want
 And bent all the rules
 12:00 14.07.03

A rhyme for me

 Usual food
 Walking along the beach
 Modest life
 Small gifts
 And so it is for now
 I have to go through this lake
 Get to the finish line
 How a strong tiger arise!
 On my podium I will stand
 I will overcome everything bad
 Friends...
 Not many of you ...
 But a whole you I kiss
 ... I have one friend
 But good, beloved
 A lot to say here
 I could speak for a hundred
 I'll just say
 He's called Dream
 13:03 09.06.03

Without title

 Eyelets watering
 My hands are tucked in
 In the fresh down ...
 ... I hear the singing
 Is this a joyful song?
 Just like a poem ...
 Or rather mocking?
 Or maybe different ...?
 Planets are spinning
 Chops are frying
 Crazy life
 Like cast noodles
 What should I do?
 My melody walked
 Ha!
 It didn't come anywhere
 Now it doesn't know where it went
 But it will go far
 Surely will find me
 And we'll go together
 And we both know it
 Rest...
 Will stay in my mind
 Crying won't touch my eyes!
 01:29 07.06.03

End

 
 
 Nightingale sings in secret
 Sometimes he has humor
 A young lady is walking by the pond
 And deceives all men
 Suddenly the sun is flying from the sky
 For all these garbage
 There is no day, there is no night
 And no one has it in power
 Whose fault?
 Or bad face?
 Everyone shouts
 There snake hisses 
 Stupid people!
 After this toil ...
 To finish like that ...!
 Maybe if someone would turn on the cork
 Maybe someone will have a mercy
 It will rebuild everything
 Let this evil destroy itself !!!
 Let it squeak with pain !!!
 11:10 04.06.03

View

 someone...
 something...
 and suddenly nothing!
 only the viewer!
 one
 sits at the end
 and observes
 ... I wonder what she's up to
 I know, I won't find down anything
 for
 He will not tell me
 so I'm not thinking about it anymore
 23:40 02.06.03